How did you get to this point in your journey as a photographer?
I played around with the idea of myself as a photographer for the longest time. I questioned whether or not a career in photography was something I wanted to actually pursue. I had a lot of self-doubts.
I think the biggest milestone was making the decision to move to NYC and actually go for it, become a professional photographer. That was a tough decision, to move to such a competitive market. But, I did it and that leap of faith paid off.
Since moving to NYC, I have been able to shoot on film sets, expand into videography, and meet other creatives who continue to inspire me. The reward was worth the risk.
Why do you pick up the camera? What is it about the medium that resonates with you?
I have ADHD to the max, shit is real. My mind moves at such a fast speed it is, at times, hard to control. Photography helps me interact with the world at a calmer, more sustainable pace.
Photography is also a tool I use to help me communicate. Sometimes I find it difficult to put my thoughts into the written or spoken word. Photography, in a way, became my language. Through my camera, the world looks clear to me. Because of the slower pace that my style of photographing demands, I am forced to slow down, to see instead of look.
What have been some failures you have experienced as a photographer thus far? How have you reacted in relation to those failures?
I think my biggest failures have come from constantly beating myself up. Comparing myself to other creatives pushed me into stagnation, a place of little creation, inspiration, or motivation. It didn’t help when rejection letters and emails came in after submitting the work I actually managed to produce during that dark time. Between my inability to accept rejection and my own self-doubts, I was my own worst enemy.
I don’t really think you ever get over the rejection that comes your way, or at least I haven’t. I have, however, changed the way that I absorb rejection. A good friend of mine told me, “There is always someone that’s going to be better than you smarter than you, more creative than you. But don’t let them out-work you.” That advice is a constant reminder that I need to work harder. I need to put more work out.
Now, for every “no” that I get in my inbox, I just create another body of work that’s important to me and put it out into the world with my middle finger in the air. I now view the “failures” as opportunities for progress instead of catalysts for stagnation and self-deprecation.